Thursday, August 7, 2008
Birthday Surprises
I dont necessary strive to always be the center of attention, but I dont mind it either ;) And on my birthday, the universe revolves around me!!
I had a great birthday!! I'll never forget the surprise party... thanks a lot, evry1!!!
lotsa luv
*moi*
<3
I had a great birthday!! I'll never forget the surprise party... thanks a lot, evry1!!!
lotsa luv
*moi*
<3
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Mindless.
Someone says something. Someone whispers something. Someone gestures.
Sometimes people are so unknowingly instrumental in killing a soul, a spirit. A single word is enough. It feels like a part or me, something inside, dies. A little corner of my heart gets singed. Every single time. I wonder what I will finally be left with.
It happens with friends. It happens with family.
But most often, it happens with school teachers. Funny na. They are supposed to be the ones who "shape our spirit" and "wholly develop our outlook and personality". Ha.
Mindless murderers.
Sometimes people are so unknowingly instrumental in killing a soul, a spirit. A single word is enough. It feels like a part or me, something inside, dies. A little corner of my heart gets singed. Every single time. I wonder what I will finally be left with.
It happens with friends. It happens with family.
But most often, it happens with school teachers. Funny na. They are supposed to be the ones who "shape our spirit" and "wholly develop our outlook and personality". Ha.
Mindless murderers.
Show me the meaning...
" The heart does things for reasons that reason cannot understand"
This comes to me as a consolation, an excuse for certain behaviour that we display. Who claims to always have rational thoughts and actions? Never happens. After all, we're only human. Some happenings are extremely joyful. Others are extremely painful.
What defines the pain that someone feels? Everyone feels differently. Everyone is offended differently.
People shout, people sulk, people hate. Sometimes there is nothing that can be done to console them. But sometimes there is also nothing that can explain this behaviour, and thats when I think of the above line -- the heart does things for reasons that reason cannot understand.
Why do I shout? Why do I sulk? Knowing always, that there is no rational explanation? What do I say when people ask? I tell them... that the heart does things for reasons that reason cannot understand.
This comes to me as a consolation, an excuse for certain behaviour that we display. Who claims to always have rational thoughts and actions? Never happens. After all, we're only human. Some happenings are extremely joyful. Others are extremely painful.
What defines the pain that someone feels? Everyone feels differently. Everyone is offended differently.
People shout, people sulk, people hate. Sometimes there is nothing that can be done to console them. But sometimes there is also nothing that can explain this behaviour, and thats when I think of the above line -- the heart does things for reasons that reason cannot understand.
Why do I shout? Why do I sulk? Knowing always, that there is no rational explanation? What do I say when people ask? I tell them... that the heart does things for reasons that reason cannot understand.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Ramblings of an Amateur
Sreesanth is an embarrassment to Indian cricket! I was just watching the IPL match between the Rajasthan Royals (Jaipur) and Punjab XI Kings (Mohali)... Sreesanth was bowling to Shane Watson and damn... something happened and the look he gave to Watson!! That sort of attitude ought to be restricted to gully cricket. So yeah, hez a great bowler... yeah, there's a lot of hype about him... yeah, he caught the last ball at the T20 World Cup... but does that excuse his insane behaviour on the pitch?!?
Im sure many experts have written pages and pages about this... am just a bystander who happened to watch one over of the match (I wish I cud watch the whole thing!! dammit I have a Chem test tomorrow!!) and I was just absolutely appalled at the kind of behaviour Sreesanth displays... a few balls after the aforementioned incident, Watson hit a beauty, a four... and the mood in our living room was like, "great, give it back to that rascal"... LOL! Unconciously, we had all been hoping for a few outstanding shots from Watson to put our great Sreesanth back in his place...
Just some random ramblings...
Getting back to Haloalkanes and Haloarenes...
Au revoir!
Im sure many experts have written pages and pages about this... am just a bystander who happened to watch one over of the match (I wish I cud watch the whole thing!! dammit I have a Chem test tomorrow!!) and I was just absolutely appalled at the kind of behaviour Sreesanth displays... a few balls after the aforementioned incident, Watson hit a beauty, a four... and the mood in our living room was like, "great, give it back to that rascal"... LOL! Unconciously, we had all been hoping for a few outstanding shots from Watson to put our great Sreesanth back in his place...
Just some random ramblings...
Getting back to Haloalkanes and Haloarenes...
Au revoir!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Gitanjali...
Im into poems, but I never was really interested in Gitanjali... somehow it never appealed to me... not that I had read it :P but it seemed like the only people who did read it were oldies and boring people... even most bengali patriots who swore by Tagore had not read it! :D
But I wondered what the hype was all about... I mean, the Nobel Prize, come on, must be something... so I bothered to go through it, and I liked some of the verses... here are three...
(the most obvious one, also my favourite) :
Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high
Where knowledge is free;
Where the world has not been broken up
into fragments by narrow domestic walls
Where words come out from the depth of truth;
Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection;
Where the clear stream of reason
has not lost its way into the dreary desert sand of dead habit;
Where the mind is let forward by three into ever-widening thought and action-
Into that heaven of freedon, my Father, let my country awake.
Song Unsung
The song that I came to sing remains unsung to this day
I have spent my days in stringing and unstringing my instrument
The time has not come true, the words have not been rightly set;
only there is the agony of wishing in my heart
The blossom has not opened; only the wind is sighing by
I have not yet seen his face, nor have I listened to his voice;
only I have heard his gentle footsteps from the road before my house
The livelong day has passed in spreading his seat on the floor;
but the lamp has not been lit and I cannot ask him into my house
I live in the hope of meeting with him; but this meeting is not yet.
Lotus
On the day when the lotus bloomed, alas, my mind was straying, and I knew it not
My basket was empty and the flower remained unheeded
Only now and again a sadness fell upon me, and I started up from my dream and felt a sweet trace of a strange fragrance in the south wind.
That vague sweetness made my heart ache with longing and it seemed to me that it was the eager breath of the summer seeking for its completion.
I knew it not then that it was so near, that it was mine, and that this perfect sweetness had blossomed in the depth of my own heart.
But I wondered what the hype was all about... I mean, the Nobel Prize, come on, must be something... so I bothered to go through it, and I liked some of the verses... here are three...
(the most obvious one, also my favourite) :
Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high
Where knowledge is free;
Where the world has not been broken up
into fragments by narrow domestic walls
Where words come out from the depth of truth;
Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection;
Where the clear stream of reason
has not lost its way into the dreary desert sand of dead habit;
Where the mind is let forward by three into ever-widening thought and action-
Into that heaven of freedon, my Father, let my country awake.
Song Unsung
The song that I came to sing remains unsung to this day
I have spent my days in stringing and unstringing my instrument
The time has not come true, the words have not been rightly set;
only there is the agony of wishing in my heart
The blossom has not opened; only the wind is sighing by
I have not yet seen his face, nor have I listened to his voice;
only I have heard his gentle footsteps from the road before my house
The livelong day has passed in spreading his seat on the floor;
but the lamp has not been lit and I cannot ask him into my house
I live in the hope of meeting with him; but this meeting is not yet.
Lotus
On the day when the lotus bloomed, alas, my mind was straying, and I knew it not
My basket was empty and the flower remained unheeded
Only now and again a sadness fell upon me, and I started up from my dream and felt a sweet trace of a strange fragrance in the south wind.
That vague sweetness made my heart ache with longing and it seemed to me that it was the eager breath of the summer seeking for its completion.
I knew it not then that it was so near, that it was mine, and that this perfect sweetness had blossomed in the depth of my own heart.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
After a while...
Damn its been a long long time. I cant believe I got through 11th!!! I mean, it was a very realistic possibility that I might fail this year... I managed a 60+, im shocked as hell... pleasantly shocked :P not complaining!
Taking a whole new approach to 12th... wont repeat the same mistakes (will make new ones! hehe) I've dropped maths tuition - waking up at 6 in the morning is the most counter-productive thing I have ever done in my life... also dropped chemistry tuition - i anyway never used parab sir's notes, why the hell should i continue, i used to use those two hours to catch up on sleep... Since its board year, I'm planning on being completely dependent on the textbooks, and if I have any sort of problem I plan to get behind KK and Zim sirs for the solutions... they'r the teachers, and I have decided to totally exploit the school resources...
In theory it should work. Practically? Lets give it a month or two and see :)
You know what? Seems like 4 people have been detained in 11th. I mean, alright, they didnt get the required 33% pass percentage... but what sort of a school kicks out its students??! And one of them couldnt make the cut by just 3 marks. Come on, doesnt the school have some sort of a social responsibility?? Its not doing us a favour by giving us an education, it must realize that hey, Anandalaya is by far NOT the best school around... attending it is merely a locational necessity. Just as it is our responsibility to always be at our best, to be well-turned-out Anandalaya students, isnt it also the school's responsibility to make least bit of effort to ensure that it happens? That we become "well-turned-out Anandalaya students"??
I liked something my father said : private schools run on money. Every student is financially important to them, so they do their best to make sure every seat is filled and no student ever faces a detainments situation. On the other hand, government schools can be questioned by the judiciary. Theirs is the greatest social responsibility, and they are under pressure for being answerable for whatever happens to any student. So basically, in one, money talks, and in the other, power talks.
But my school? Anandalaya the great is neither here nor there. To put it simply in hindi, sirf management ki manmani chalti hai. One of my friends said, ya, neither money nor power talks, but hey, in Anandalaya, marks talk. The criteria are clear : if you dont make the cut, you're out.
I think that is such a farce. I mean, whats the point of failing a child in 11th? At the end of the year, is it right that the school is asking a student to leave??
There is an option for students to give board exams as private candidates. But, for this, it is required for the student to have class 12 education on certificate.
Every school anyway conducts prelims before the board exams. In fact, Anandalaya conducts two rounds of prelims, a system I strongly advocate for. So if a student does not manage to do well, or fetch even 40% marks in the prelims, the school could suggest that he/she write the boards as a private candidate. Wouldnt that be the best option, for both the student as well as the school? I know the school only worries about its result, I would be surprised if they cared about the student individually, its only the overall result of every successive batch that counts in the long run. So it would be a win-win situation, wouldnt it? The school wouldnt have to worry about its results, and the student faces no insult, family trauma or the stigma of failing, which, lets admit, is made worse than it actually is, by society.
But hell, who would think about it.
Another question is; why am I bothering at all? I've managed to pass quite acceptably, so why create such a ruckus about those who havent? Its not about who has been detained; its not because some of them happen to be very close friends. It is only because its upto me, its upto us, those who have managed to pass, to put the point across. The fairest king has always been the one whose courtiers have been varied in their opinions; the advantaged must speak for the disadvantaged. Its the same principle that applies when we take it as social responsibility to speak out against poverty, pollution, exploitaiton...
Aargh. Just my thoughts. Too complex?
Taking a whole new approach to 12th... wont repeat the same mistakes (will make new ones! hehe) I've dropped maths tuition - waking up at 6 in the morning is the most counter-productive thing I have ever done in my life... also dropped chemistry tuition - i anyway never used parab sir's notes, why the hell should i continue, i used to use those two hours to catch up on sleep... Since its board year, I'm planning on being completely dependent on the textbooks, and if I have any sort of problem I plan to get behind KK and Zim sirs for the solutions... they'r the teachers, and I have decided to totally exploit the school resources...
In theory it should work. Practically? Lets give it a month or two and see :)
You know what? Seems like 4 people have been detained in 11th. I mean, alright, they didnt get the required 33% pass percentage... but what sort of a school kicks out its students??! And one of them couldnt make the cut by just 3 marks. Come on, doesnt the school have some sort of a social responsibility?? Its not doing us a favour by giving us an education, it must realize that hey, Anandalaya is by far NOT the best school around... attending it is merely a locational necessity. Just as it is our responsibility to always be at our best, to be well-turned-out Anandalaya students, isnt it also the school's responsibility to make least bit of effort to ensure that it happens? That we become "well-turned-out Anandalaya students"??
I liked something my father said : private schools run on money. Every student is financially important to them, so they do their best to make sure every seat is filled and no student ever faces a detainments situation. On the other hand, government schools can be questioned by the judiciary. Theirs is the greatest social responsibility, and they are under pressure for being answerable for whatever happens to any student. So basically, in one, money talks, and in the other, power talks.
But my school? Anandalaya the great is neither here nor there. To put it simply in hindi, sirf management ki manmani chalti hai. One of my friends said, ya, neither money nor power talks, but hey, in Anandalaya, marks talk. The criteria are clear : if you dont make the cut, you're out.
I think that is such a farce. I mean, whats the point of failing a child in 11th? At the end of the year, is it right that the school is asking a student to leave??
There is an option for students to give board exams as private candidates. But, for this, it is required for the student to have class 12 education on certificate.
Every school anyway conducts prelims before the board exams. In fact, Anandalaya conducts two rounds of prelims, a system I strongly advocate for. So if a student does not manage to do well, or fetch even 40% marks in the prelims, the school could suggest that he/she write the boards as a private candidate. Wouldnt that be the best option, for both the student as well as the school? I know the school only worries about its result, I would be surprised if they cared about the student individually, its only the overall result of every successive batch that counts in the long run. So it would be a win-win situation, wouldnt it? The school wouldnt have to worry about its results, and the student faces no insult, family trauma or the stigma of failing, which, lets admit, is made worse than it actually is, by society.
But hell, who would think about it.
Another question is; why am I bothering at all? I've managed to pass quite acceptably, so why create such a ruckus about those who havent? Its not about who has been detained; its not because some of them happen to be very close friends. It is only because its upto me, its upto us, those who have managed to pass, to put the point across. The fairest king has always been the one whose courtiers have been varied in their opinions; the advantaged must speak for the disadvantaged. Its the same principle that applies when we take it as social responsibility to speak out against poverty, pollution, exploitaiton...
Aargh. Just my thoughts. Too complex?
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